Ramblings going on in my head.

I need a break from studying so I'm writing in this.

I am sitting here watching BRIDGET JONES' DIARY for the second time in a row. I AM attempting to be Spanish, as I keep the subtitles in Spanish (I looked, Spanish language dub is not an option), however, I just wanted it as background noise to drown out the sound of the tutoring session going on in the next room, so I'm not even WATCHING it I'm only LISTENING. and only partly.

I am also incredibly proud of myself that I have gone an entire month in a foreign country whilst having bouts of homesickness without watching it.

I veto'd the GO TO BARCELONA FOR THE LONG WEEKEND idea because that's where my mom will want to go if she comes out. However, she's slacking on her end of picking dates, and it is seriously messing up my travel plans. I want to go to Ireland with Stephanie for the weekend with 2 other ADPis and her brother, but the ticket price has literally tripled in a week. I can get there without a problem, it's getting back that is proving an issue. And I'm not about to book a flight and not know if I can get home. So I'm figuring it out. I'm looking at money and I just had to pay my EAP tuition bill and am starting to really think over my trips and stuff.

OH and UCLA, in all their genius wonder, double billed me. I got a bill for being abroad (just under 4000) and another bill (just over 3000) for spring tuition at UCLA. I AM NOT AT UCLA. I called them and they were like WELL ITS NOT OUR FAULT, but alas, it was. Silly people.

There's an opportunity to stay in Barcelona for the month of July and teach English to kids, and I've sent in my CV for it. One guy was already offered one of the 15 spots, and it's really exciting. Teaching English as a foreign language is what I want to do.... but how can I expect myself to last that long on a 1000euro salary paying rent and living a month beforehand? I have friends in Slovakia I know I can crash with and apparently I have family in Austria. Plus there's couch surfing. Who knows.

But then there's also the fact that I need to work so I can pay for the sorority and housing next year. I was bouncing back and forth between the house and an apartment, and the house has apparently already filled up for the year, minus a few open spots during the fall quarter. So that is apparently a giant FAIL. I'm a senior, it's my last year, and I should probably figure out how to live on my own at some point. Do that whole grown up independent self reliable thing. I will probably snag food from the house like all the other live-outs before me, and I'm okay with that.

HOWEVER there is always the possibility that I won't be re-approved to work at six flags and I can kiss my fabulous-paying job goodbye. and THEN i'd have to look for summer work half way through june. I am not a fan of that idea either. I mean, heck, I'm HERE, why not STAY?


Needed to put thoughts down. If this is terribly depressing I'll delete it later. Any input on places I can visit here? I swear I'm monitoring my quickly dwindling money (stupid morocco final payment is still 220euro more and its driving me nuts trying to convert money in my head). Granted, paying a multi-grand bill can make you feel like you will soon be living in a cardboard box with the gypsies.